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  • Why do women hold women down?

    This morning I was going through my old emails, and came across an entry from one of “Laine’s Letters“. I often enjoy her letters, and her recipes are killer – I use a bunch of them. Some of her homemaking entries have inspired me on difficult days. The entry that I came across was called “A Gracious Woman Retains Honor“. It sounded good, so I started reading it.

    Laine goes on to list things she has learned about women from her Bible reading, and they include lots of great things and also some things that are completely out of context, like

    “She learns in silence in the church with all submission.”

    <big sigh>

    Luckily for me, I was reading a book that had nothing to do with women, as far as I knew. It is called What Paul Meant by Garry Wills. In today’s reading I came across his chapter on Paul and women, and I am so glad that he dealt with this issue so I can respond to Laine with a scholarly word, and not just my own ramblings, LOL. Here’s what Mr Wills said (after a lengthy discussion on the very important and egalitarian role of women in the early church)

    Prophecy is now popularly thought to mean prediction of the future. But the Jewish prophets were inspired denouncers of those who lapsed from the Lord’s ways, reformers and purifiers. The faults at Corinth had their excoriaters, and some of the prophets were women. Paul writes that in the gatherings there a woman “should not pray or prophesy with her head uncovered” (1 Cor 11.5)… He is just as strict in saying that men should not have their heads covered when they pray or prophesy.

    Well then, I suppose this was silent prophesy, no? Jewish prophesy does not align with learning in silence and sitting in full submission. I mean, it was submission in the way that all believers submit to one another, but not in the patriarchal sense of the term where women never speak up when they see something wrong. For the full debate, feel free to pick up this book, or any number of other amazing scholarly works. Email or comment and I’ll happily list some of my faves šŸ˜‰ As a matter of fact, I was listening to a VERY conservative Christian podcast from some folks from Dallas Theological Seminary, and they agreed on some related issues. Its not just the crazy liberals saying this stuff. Laine’s list is SO long, and yet she doesn’t even address that one should cover her head while prophesying. Why is this? Why take away liberties that were given to women? The first century church was not like we think of church now. I’m guessing Laine may very well look at her links and pop over here, so if so, please comment šŸ™‚

    And just to close, a few more thoughts from Mr. Wills on Paul’s associations with women

    Prisca even went to prison with him…  Phoebe is his protectress.  Another Sister is like his mother.  Chloe’s establishment keeps him informed.  His crack team assembled in Rome for the Spanish campaign includes ten women, at least three of them married.  He knows a woman emissary (apostolos), a woman attendant (diakonos), and women prophets.  He knows two women leaders in Philippi, Euodia and Syntyche, who have become rivals, and he begs for their reconciliation (not their condemnation) at Philippians 4.2-3.  The later misogyny of the Christian churches would never have occurred if the spirit of Paul had continued in them.

  • Mourning Wild Oats

    I went out and did my grocery shopping today. I was bummed as I went around Wild Oats and realized that soon it would be swallowed up by Whole Foods. I realize that Boulder is home to Wild Oats, and that is probably why I like it so much. They do a wonderful job of buying local (and marking it so you can tell what you are buying!) while still keeping prices reasonable. Their sales are so much better than WF and their bulk section rocks. I have heard that this is not the case on the east coast, but here in Colorado, I think Wild Oats is way better.

    To be fair, Vitamin Cottage beats them both up and down the block when it comes to prices (and they only stock organic!), but VC is a lot smaller and doesn’t offer the deli and butchering services that Wild Oats and Whole Foods offer, so it is harder for them to be competitive if you are an omnivore.

    In The Omnivore’s Dilemma, Michael Pollan talks about how Whole Foods uses a big distribution chain for their produce which means that only a very small percentage is still from local farms. They fly produce around just like Safeway, and they are more than willing to sacrifice the local ideals in order to better industrialize their chain. That’s fine if they want to do it, but I’d rather have Wild Oats as a competitive option.

    Then again, in some ways Whole Foods has it right. Their organic milk doesn’t come from Aurora, unlike Wild Oats. They also do a better job of luring in yuppies, which I suppose is a good thing. Whole Foods offers more “regular” products like Quaker Oats. I don’t know…

    See, this is why I like being able to get the good things frome each store. Now that option is being taken from me :P  I realize this is all a part of capitalism, but it bums me out.  I like having choices.  I’m pouting.

  • Where is the church going?

    I just finished Monique El-Faizy’s God and Country: How Evangelicals Have Become America’s New Mainstream, and it contained a lot of different points that I’d like to discuss. It is really interesting to read an athiest’s view of the Evangelical world. She was a Christian until she went away to college and stepped away from the faith. Its kind of nice to be able to hear from someone who was both an insider and now an outsider to Christianity. It makes for an interesting perspective.

    I was going to write about her chapter on church history, but I just changed my mind. I want to talk about her discussion of megachurches and their future šŸ™‚ So let’s jump on in:

    Despite the continuing success of megachurches, as they get bigger and blander some people are starting to look for a new kind of experience, one more immediate or transcendent. They’re finding it in some unlikely places, in the podcasts of sermons they download from the Internet, in cyberchurches, and in Bible studies at their workplaces, what Barna calls “marketplace ministries.” Many have left the church building and are meeting in parks and houses. In fact, the house church movement, in which several families meet on a regular basis in someone’s home, often to be led by the same person each week, is growing by great leaps.

    Even before I read this section, my mom and I were discussing this idea of alternate ways of attending church. I had told my mom that the Bible study group that we led last year in our house was the truest church I’ve ever attended. We were living lives where we could be accountable to each other, learn together, really probe into scripture with debate, and pray for one another. It wasn’t just a matter of showing up on Sunday and checking “church” off of our list. It was non-hierarchical and met in our home, and yet it fulfilled more of the ideas of church than any “church” (what we now consider to be a church) that I’ve attended ever has. Still we feel this pull that it was “only a Bible study” and that if we didn’t attend Sunday services in a big building then we wouldn’t really be in church.

    This is a seminal time for the church, a moment of reflection and self-assessment such as hasn’t been seen in decades. Its attempts to germane to society have been so successful that the church is in the midst of an identity crisis sparked by its own achievement. Long accustomed to being on the fringes, evangelical Christianity has become so big, so powerful, and so mainstream that many on the inside are wondering if they’ve lost their flavor and have abandoned what made them distinctive.

    I can definitely see this feeling spreading in the church. We are losing a lot of our flavor. We are giving many of our churches over to the pop culture of Christianity and the world. If you don’t attend a mega-church, then the far likelihood is that you attend a church that uses a curriculum from a mega-church. There is no local flavor. It is bland.

    The response to these concerns has taken several different forms. Many Christians are looking to put the sanctity back in church and are returning to the traditions that the megachurches abandoned. Where churches such as Willow Creek and Saddleback desanctified the physical church, others are looking to resanctify it, placing new value on incense, stained glass, candles, and other high-church trappings. They are reintroducing liturgy to their services, or moving into denominations that never abandoned it, such as the Episcopalian church (although there they opt for conservative congregations that are on the restrictive side of the split over gay clergy).

    I find this to be very true in my own life. I have started searching out more traditional ways of worship. We light candles for the Sabbath like my father’s family did, we recite the same prayers that were recited when I was young (and since the times of the early Jews), I am longing for more liturgy in service. I have even looked at denominations that still use liturgy, although I have generally been more drawn to Messianic Jewish congregations instead of Episcopalian, but the root desire is the same. The desire is to be a part of something deeper… something that isn’t just the flavor-of-the-day. I want a faith and a practice that stands the test of time, not just what gets people in the door today.

    Megachurches were invented by baby boomers and designed to appeal to that generation. They rely on the notion of choice and individualization and on the tools of marketing to hone and promote their product. This comes, though, at the cost of the idea that the church is a body, the needs of which supersede those of the individual. Along with defecting boomers, younger generations, which are remarkably religious, are beginning to rebel against the church of their parents’ generation and are looking for more direct encounters with the divine. They don’t need the pat answers megachurches provide but are willing to embark on their own personal spiritual journeys.

    The fact is that my parents and my husband’s parents were fundamentalists who switched to a more evangelical route when the tide started to change. They followed what was going on around them. In our attempt to return to a “deeper” spiritual experience, we are doing the same thing. We are doing what our generation feels prone to do. We’re not any different, the trends are just changing.

    I have a lot more to say, but my fingers are getting tired, lol. Next time I want to write about what El-Faizy sees as the different options in the post-modern and emergent church. I think you’ll find it interesting to read from the perspective of a woman who is no longer in the church (El-Faizy, not me, lol).

    My morning sickness seems to be coming at night, and I am starting to feel a little yucky. I’m relieved to feel a little sick though, because it gives some reassurance that this is a “sticky” baby. I’ve really been trying to put this in God’s hands, but it is so hard. I know I have no control over this little life growing in me, but at the same time I get a sense of control if I am thinking or worrying about it. I am trying so hard to give that up. I really appreciate everyone’s prayers for me, for the baby, and for the rest of our family. You’re the best!

  • How to Read a Book (and how to bore a reader)

    I feel terrible saying this, but I am so glad to be done with this book. It wasn’t a bad book exactly, but I now come away from it thinking “Hmm. I guess I already knew how to read a book.” That fact seems like it should’ve been pretty self-evident.

    I think that the problem with this kind of book (and I’d say the same for books that teach you how to read the Bible) is that it is explaining things in explicit detail that should come naturally to a good reader. I think that what is said is true, but I also think that if you tried to follow it without having already developed the skills then you’d just end up frustrated.

    The authors use skiing as an example of a similar activity to the kind of reading they want you to learn. I think this is very accurate. When you first learn to ski, you are trying to think of so many things that you must do: don’t lean back, push your shins forward, put your weight on the bottom ski, don’t face your skis back uphill, etc. You’re only a good skier when you can do all of these things without thinking about it. As long as you are trying to follow the rules, you will never be comfortable on skis.

    I think the same thing would happen if you were a below-average (or even average?) reader and you tried to follow the rules of this book. The theory is sound, but it is more of an art than a science.

    In my last post I included their quote on the dictionary ::I’m rolling my eyes right now:: but at the end they have a few words on children in the section on how to read philosophical books. Since that goes well with my blog, I thought I’d share.

    (When talking about the simple questions kids ask like “Why are people?” or “What’s the world’s first name?”)

    Why should we have to try to develop such minds, when children are born with them? Somewhere along the line, adults must fail somehow to sustain the infant’s curiosity at its original depth. School itself, perhaps, dulls the mind–by the dead weight of rote learning, much of which may be necessary. The failure is probably even more often the parents’ fault. We so often tell a child there is no answer, even when one is available, or demand that he ask no more questions. We thinly conceal our irritation when baffled by the apparently unanswerable query. All this discourages the child. He may get the impression that it is impolite to be too inquisitive.

    Very true… well with the possible exception of the line about rote learning being necessary. Then they must go on to say

    Children are much concerned with the difference between good and bad; their behinds are likely to suffer if they make mistakes about it.

    Rawr.

    Moving right along:

    I hope that the rest of the books on the Serious Times list are a little better. If they aren’t then I might be abandoning their list for another one. I feel like How to Read a Book might have actually sucked away the skills that I already used in reading. Blah.

    Last night I started on Mindless Eating: Why We Eat More Than We Think, and it is very fascinating so far. It reads a lot like Freakonomics.

    Good night and happy reading!

  • New books and my chance to hear Michael Pollan speak

    I have all of these entries in the works, but I’ve been bogged down and haven’t had them time to actually write them out.

    Last night I had the opportunity to go hear Michael Pollan (author of The Omnivore’s Delimma) speak. It was really great, and it was perfect timing since I’ve been blogging about him for the past month or so. I was sitting at my computer, minding my own business, when a new article popped up in Vienna saying that Mr. Pollan would be speaking at Colorado College. I called up my friend, begged her to join me, and made plans to go to Colorado Springs. It was such a nice night out! I’m such a nerd šŸ˜›

    This week I have a new hunk of books that I’m working on.

    I am about 2/3 of the way through with this one now. It is giving me all sorts of great quotes like

    …the dictionary also invites a playful reading. It challenges anyone to sit down with it in an idle moment.

    Dude. Their dictionary is apparently not like my dictionary.

    My upcoming reads this week:

    I started this one last week, but I put it on the back burner to finish How to Read a Book


    This one was recommended on the Vegan Freak podcast. I’m really looking forward to it.

    This one was recommended by Sara. I’m hoping to write about it once I’m digging in šŸ™‚

    Well, it looks like its going to be a pretty green week of reading šŸ˜‰ I am guessing that means I’ll be reading on an entirely different subject in the next week or two. I can’t stay focused for too long.

  • This week’s books

    I am trying to figure out which one I want to blog about. I really can’t decide!

    Last week I finished Learning All The Time. I really liked it. It gave me a lot of new ideas for ways to incorporate unschooling philosophy into our daily lives. My main complaint about the unschooling movement is that I feel too many people choose to not-school and call it unschooling. I realize that everyone can make their own definitions, but if I were queen of the world šŸ˜‰ I’d have unschooling focus WAY more on the stuff that looks like what Holt says. I love his ideas.

    The books I am currently working on:

    So far this book is really making me think about whether or not I am still in the “rebellion” part of my life, and that means that I will eventually settle into some kind of compromise of life. His discussion on this fact is really interesting.

    I am reading this book because of my friend’s husband’s decision to work through the Serious Times book lists. They looked pretty good to me, so I decided to jump on board.

    This isn’t a sit-down-with-a-hot-tea kind of book, but it is nice to flip through and get good ideas. I want to do a post on green living later this week.

    This book was recommended for me by my library. So far it is VERY anti-Paul. I’m surprised, because the author has another book on why he is Catholic, so I keep thinking that he must believe Paul at some level, right?

    When I was younger, I had some issues with Paul. Even still I wouldn’t have gone as far as the author does in his introduction. His criticism of Paul as a man who made his own religion, didn’t quote Jesus, and didn’t even know Jesus are pretty harsh. Its interesting nonetheless.

    Big thanks to everyone who has purchased books off of my site. I appreciate the little bits and they help offset the server fees šŸ™‚ Also, if anyone wants to see my allconsuming list, then feel free to check it out and suggest some new books for me! Oh, and I also have started a listofbests for my 52 books for the year šŸ™‚ If you have an account on these sites, let me know and I’ll go cheer you on!
    Well, I hope everyone is having a great weekend and a restful Sabbath. I’m off to read some more šŸ™‚

  • So I guess God just made me weird…

    Currently reading:

    I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately.

    I believe that God puts certain desires in us that are neither good nor bad… they are just a part of who we are. They are the little quirks that make us special. We each learn the good and bad sides of them, and try to praise Him while using our special gifts.

    For as long as I can remember, I’ve liked to stand out. As a matter of fact, my “area of giftedness”, which was diagnosed very early, includes the fact that I don’t like to do things the way everyone else does. I am far from uncomfortable if people are looking at me, or confused by me, or intrigued by me. I really love it, actually. In high school I was a bit of a freak. I just liked to be strange in dress, in actions, in beliefs… DH jokes that he didn’t realize what he was getting when we met in college, but there was no bait-and-switch here. I was the only punk, electric guitar playing, skateboarding, vegetarian, spiked hair, football loving, computer major around, lol.

    Now as an adult, I still like to look different. I like to be different and make people think. We live a pretty typical (upper-?) middle-class kind of life. We parent differently though. We don’t really fit in completely with the secular world or with Christians.

    I noticed today that I was getting frustrated about not finding a church that agrees with me. I’m not sure why I have been so bothered by this fact. The truth is that I think I’m probably pushing too hard and asking for something unreasonable. Are there really that many AP-friendly, egalitarian, not-too-liberal-but-not-too-conservative, free thinking, Biblically based, Jew-friendly, environmental, “buy local”, give-back-to-the-community, Protestant churches out there? Um, probably not.

    I really feel like God has been nudging me to consider that I might need to go to a church that is not quite out-there, but not totally conservative, and just accept that this is another area where I am different. The things I disagree on are not essentials of the faith. Still I find it so hard to accept a church that disagrees about the way that I am a mother and a woman. Those do happen to be my two biggest roles, y’know?

    For any other weirdos out there, how have you found a church to call home? Do you search until you find one that you completely agree with or do you try to go change one with beliefs that you think are inaccurate? Is there some third option? All of my spiritual gifts are ones that are traditionally masculine, so I want to lead. I want to teach. I want to make a difference. I can’t imagine anything else. It wouldn’t feel like I was an active member of the body if not.

    Hmm, I guess I have a lot to think about. Why can’t there be a church of GCM? šŸ˜€ Crystal could be the pastor! Ahh, that sounds dreamy šŸ™‚

    Oh well.  Have a great night, everyone šŸ™‚

  • Organic dairy ratings (and a quick update on me)

    We have family in from out of town right now, so I haven’t been updating, but I didn’t want you to think I had fallen off of the face of the earth! I finished The Omnivore’s Dilemma last week and I am so glad that I read it. If you haven’t gotten it yet, I really encourage you to do so! I went to the library today to pick up some books that were on hold for me, including Appetite for Change: How The Counterculture Took on the Food Industry and God and Country: How Evangelicals Have Become America’s New Mainstream. I plan on blogging about one or both of them in the next week šŸ™‚ I’m just not sure which one will be a better fit for my blog yet šŸ˜‰
    I also wanted to share a link that I found this week for dairy industry rankings. This is a study of all the big organic dairy producers, and I think it is something that everyone who buys milk should read. Check it out here:

    http://cornucopia.org/dairysurvey/index.html

    I was inspired to find the above page after my dh brought home some Safeway Organic “O” Milk. I was less than impressed. I couldn’t even tell you the last time I purchased milk, and I told him that he was encouraging factory farming. He pulled it out of the fridge and showed me the drawing of the cows in the pasture on the front of the carton, which made me seriously roll my eyes. I then decided to prove myself right (very different from proving him wrong, lol.)

    Sure enough, I was totally right šŸ˜› He then agreed and sent on this article about Aurora Dairy, which supplies not only Safeway’s “O” brand but also Wild Oats, Wal-Mart, Target, Costco, and a few other of the big names. Please be conscientious about what you buy. It is not fair to choose to be ignorant and thus support factory farms that abuse animals. If you feel you don’t have the time to research it, let me know, and I’ll even research it for you! I want there to be no excuses! I understand that in some areas there are no better options. In that case, if you must drink milk, then I agree that the organic factory farm is better than the non-organic one. I just want to get the word out there that not all farms are created equal though. Just because there is a picture of happy cows on the cover does not mean there are happy cows making your milk.
    I hope everyone is having a great weekend šŸ™‚ Thanks for the PMs, emails, and comments over the past week. You guys are the best!

  • The animals on the “beyond organic” farm

    I split this into two entries. I hope that it won’t discourage people from reading the other one šŸ™‚

    In Chapter Eleven, Pollan discusses the way that the animals work together at Polyface farm. He starts by talking about the chickens, who are moved in a way that is similar to the cows. There is portable fencing that is used to move them so that they evenly fertilize and clean the land.

    Left to their own devices, a confined flock of chickens will eventually destroy any patch of land, by pecking the grass down to its roots and poisoning the soil with their extremely “hot,” or nitrogenous, manure. This why the typical free-range chicken yard quickly winds up bereft of plant life and hard as a brick. Moving the birds daily keeps both the land and the birds healthy; the broilers escape their pathogens and the varied diet of greens supplies most of their vitamins and minerals… Meanwhile, their manure fertilizes the grass, supplying all the nitrogen it needs. The chief reason Polyface Farm is completely self-sufficient in nitrogen is that a chicken, defecating copiously, pays a visit to virtually every square foot of it at several points during the season.

    Doesn’t that make so much more sense? Just compare that to the “free-range” organic house that was discussed a few chapters ago. Which chicken do you think has a better life?

    “In nature you’ll always find birds following herbivores,” Joel explained… “The egret perched on the rhino’s nose, the pheasants and turkeys trailing after the bison–that’s a symbiotic relationship we’re trying to imitate.” In each case the birds dine on the insects that would otherwise bother the herbivore; they also pick insect larvae and parasites out of the animal’s droppings, breaking the cycle of infestation and disease. “To mimic this symbiosis on a domestic scale, we follow the cattle in their rotation… I call these gals our sanitation crew.”

    Just like the life cycle for grass that I just spoke about in my last entry, there is something similar for the chickens.

    It seems that chicken eschew fresh manure, so he waits three or four days before bringing them in–but not a day longer. That’s because the fly larvae in the manure are on a four-day cycle, he explained. “Three days is ideal. That gives the grubs a chance to fatten up nicely, the way the hens like them, but not quite long enough to hatch into flies.” The result is prodigious amounts of protein for the hens, the insect supplying as much as a third of their total diet–and making their eggs unusually rich and tasty. By means of this simple little management trick, Joel is able to use his cattle’s waste to “grow” large quantities of high-protein chicken feed for free; he says this trims his cost of producing eggs by twenty-five cents a dozen… The cows further oblige the chickens by shearing the grass; chickens can’t navigate in grass more than about six inches tall.

    I love this. This is the kind of farm I tell myself I am supporting when I buy organic. The truth is, as I said before, that it is not necessarily what is meant by “organic”. Sure, some organic farms are like this, but the biggest producer of organic eggs is owned by the same company that made “Rosie” the chicken in my entry yesterday.

    Joel also uses ingenious ways to make fertilizer and other inputs for the farm, rather than buying them or using fossil fuels. Pollan goes on to discuss how Joel adds layers of woodchips and corn to the manure that the cows are on in their barn. This slowly rises up and then keeps them warm as it decomposes during the winter. When the cows head out to pasture in the spring, Joel brings in the pigs who use their amazing sense of smell to get the fermented corn out. This is a delicious treat to them, and as they dig through for the corn, they mix it up and make an amazing fertilizer.

    “This is the sort of farm machinery I like: never needs its oil changed, appreciates over time, and when you’re done with it you eat it.”

    You can’t argue with that (assuming you aren’t Jewish or vegetarian… or both, in my case, lol).

    I couldn’t look at their spiraled tails, which cruised about the earthy mass like conning towers on submarines, without thinking about the fate of pigtails in industrial hog production. Farmers “dock,” or snip off, the tails at birth, a practice that makes a certain twisted sense if you follow the logic of industrial efficiency on a hog farm. Piglets in these CAFOs are weaned from their mothers ten days after birth (compared with thirteen weeks in nature) because they gain weight faster on their drug-fortified feed than on sow’s milk. But this premature weaning leaves the pigs with a lifelong craving to suck and chew, a need they gratify in confinement by biting the tail of the animal in front of them. A normal pig would fight off his molester, but a demoralized pig has stopped caring. “Learned helplessness” is the psychological term and it’s not uncommon in CAFOs, where tens of thousands of hogs spend their entire lives ignorant of earth or straw or sunshine, crowded together beneath a metal roof standing on metal slats suspended over a septic tank. It’s not surprising that an animal as intelligent as a pig would get depressed under these circumstances, and a depressed pig will allow his tail to be chewed on to the point of infection. Since treating sick pigs is not economically efficient, these underperforming production units are typically clubbed to death on the spot.

    Tail docking is the USDA’s recommended solution to the porcine “vice” of tail chewing. Using a pair of pliers and no anesthetic, most–but not quite all–of the tail is snipped off. Why leave the little stump? Because the whole point of the exercise is not to remove the object of tail biting so much as to render it even more sensitive. Now a bite to the tail is so painful that even the most demoralized pig will struggle to resist it. Horrible as it is to contemplate, it’s not hard to see how the road to such a hog hell is smoothly paved with the logic of industrial efficiency.

    Doesn’t that make you sick? Even if you eat pork (which I really don’t think is a good idea), that should make you think twice about random bacon or pork chops. That is just sick.

    To close up the chapter:

    At Polyface no one ever told me not to touch the animals, or asked me to put on a biohazard suit before going into the brooder house. The reason I had to wear one at Petaluma Poultry is because that system–a monoculture of chickens raised in close confinement–is inherently precarious, and the organic rules’ prohibition on antibiotics puts it at a serious disadvantage. Maintaining a single-species animal farm on an industrial scale isn’t easy without pharmaceuticals and pesticides. Indeed, that’s why the chemicals were invented in the first place, to keep shaky monocultures from collapsing. Sometimes the large-scale organic farmer looks like someone trying to practice industrial agriculture with one hand tied behind his back.

    By the same token, a reliance on agrochemicals destroys the information feedback loop on which an attentive farmer depends to improve his farming. “Meds just mask genetic weaknesses,” Joel explained one afternoon when we were moving the cattle. “My goal is always to improve the herd, adapt it to the local conditions by careful culling. To do this I need to know: Who has a propensity for pinkeye? For worms? You simply have no clue if you’re giving meds all the time.”

    On that note, I’ll say goodbye until my next entry šŸ™‚ Thanks to everyone who has been reading and commenting! Its been great to hear from some new voices!

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